074. dark

Sirius sat with James and Lily, in silence, for a few minutes. For the first time, he felt like an outsider beside his friend; the other two only had eyes for each other. Lily Evans continued to almost obsesively clean the wounds on James' forearms, while he sat back tiredly, his eyes just barely open, sending stolen glances at her.

He was glad when he heard hurried footsteps down the staircase - sure enough, Amanda appeared at the foot of the stairs, already bathed and in her pyjamas. With one look, she understood, walked forward and, suppressing a smile, took Sirius' hand and led him away, upstairs.

'How rude of you,' she whispered as they travelled up, scoldingly and playfully at the same time, 'just sitting there when they are just about to come to terms with their feelings!'

'Ah, what can I say, I love playing chaperone,' Sirius answered sardonically, but simultaneously climbing up the step between them and putting his arms around her waist, embracing her from behind. Amanda turned and looked him in the eye, and her smile flickered. She looked away.

'What?' he added, puzzled.
'Come,' she replied, her breathing uneven.

She took his hand again, breaking the embrace, and led him into her room once they reached the landing. Sirius turned to close the door, leaving them in the darkness of the dormitory.

He turned to face her and, before he could do anything else, before he could light a candle or even see it coming, she was kissing him more intensely than ever. He couldn't see a thing at first - it was just the feel of her hair, the skin, her nails on the back of his neck. His eyes slowly adjusted, and now he could see the patches of skin and the strands of hair, getting in the way, tangled in his fingers...

Something was off. She was never like this.

'Hey, hey,' Sirius muttered hurriedly while she still tried to continue to kiss him. 'Mands!' he urged terminantly, holding her face in both hands and staring at her in the dark. She looked down yet again, breathing heavily.

'What's this about?'
'What do you think?'
'This is not like you.'

'Not like me?' she repeated after him, looking at him angrily now. Her hands, which had slithered down his chest and undone a couple of the buttons of his shirt, now drew away as if he had caught fire. She spoke extremely fast. 'And what about you? 'Cause this is like you though, isn't it? This is-'

But Sirius cut her off, completely bewildered, 'I don't even...what are you on about?'

Amanda didn't answer; instead, her eyes bore into his, and they glistened as they filled up with tears. 'You almost died today...only barely escaped. I don't...' she hesitated, and Sirius was almost sure she was blushing, 'I don't want to miss out on things, knowing either of us could die tomorrow.'

Sirius chuckled and made to hug her, but she pushed him away. 'That's not all,' now she looked rather angry and hurt. Now she had calmed down, however, speaking her mind proved to be a much easier task.

'I know this is not like me to do this. But what about you? You...you're famous for this at Hogwarts and I'm your girlfriend and you haven't tried anything with me!' again it all came out too quickly and awkwardly; admittedly, it had been on her mind for quite a while now.

Sirius raised his eyebrows, and there was a pause in which he just surveyed her, her hair messily arranged and the straps of her pyjama top slipping past her shoulders.

He kissed her. 'You have no idea,' he whispered, 'how much I want to do this with you. I just thought if I approached you like...like I did before with other girls, you'd think I see you as I see them. That's not true. I wanted you to know that I love you first.'

She smiled and Sirius considered his point understood. He reached forward amd this time she did allow him to hug her tightly, his laugh buried in her chestnut hair.

'Actually,' he whispered playfully into her ear, 'it's been in my head longer than you probably imagine...'

'Oh shh!' she snorted, hitting him playfully.


Yeah...so this is the sexiest thing you're getting from me. They had to have this, though! I hope you like! I know, the yellow dots are weird - I liked how they looked, though.